Another post after a long week....

I am getting quite lazy to write about stuff in da blog....... well guess i m gonna miss 1 week of school for the bengkel konsert kementerian malaysia, doesn't it sounds cool?? =) yea I ll be singing =)

Its a one of a kind experience... I ll be missing handball competition, Mr. Alvin said if I didn't have to go for the bengkel I would have been in the school team but too bad... I ll also be missing my school's sports day and ninjutsu demonstration >.< Chun keat angry lolz...

Well.. another thing is I'M SO EXCITED FOR HUI JAN... she went to DAVID ARCHULETA'S SHOWCASE.... im so excited because im imagining myself going to Girls Generation consert, it isn't fair... they always perform in Thailand which is just next to Malaysia >.<... why don't they just come to Malaysia for once...

hui jan's dream came true >.< now its time for mine to come true... =)... AND I WANT TO JOIN S.M. GLOBAL AUDITION if they come to Malaysia... I ll have my own korean band and I ll change my name to Joon-A.... hahaha cause my last 2 names are Joon Aun...

I hope I can catch up with my studies ... and last but not lease I FINISHED MY PHYSICS PEKA... MUAHAHHAHAHA..... Mr Ng corrected me so many times... small mistake like indent/ tab made me rewrite one whole page >.<.... and he tells me after I was done,

'' From what I can see no mistake lar... when I read slowly I might find more mistake so I cant gurantee you that you will get full marks.. so dont come and tell me, teacher teacher I thought you said no mistakes already???? ''

So I said, '' yea lar teacher... yorr.... if got mistake also i cant do anything lar... i wont be here next week also.... if you give me 8 or 9 marks upon 10 then ok dy lar...yorrr.rrr...''

(Mr Ng repeatedly said, '' you dont want to listen then you make mistake then i slaughter you...ah..dont do propally i slaughter you.... kill or be killed'' when he told us how to do the peka)

sheesshhhh.....

p.s. heres one of my favourite pictures of Sunny/ Lee Sun Kyu from Girls Generation'...




Sunny hwaiting =) SARANGHAEYO!!!!!!

My blog as my diary... my emo stories is 50% true and 50 % made up...

3rd part of my thoughts the another day.... probably the last of this story...

maybe I'm misunderstanding you.... but are you trying to avoid me???.... calcium hydroxide... another chemical formula... using it as a name... for the story...

I don't know... probably you read this blog and decided that I was overreacting and shouldn't have wrote about it?>.<....

You'd also probably think I'm annoying... for still reminding you of all the times... hahaha....
and keep confessing.... I'd leave it all to fate... to decide... should we be together...

I thought maybe we could be friends and forget all about it??? the reason I'm writing this down is so I could forget everything.... its really hard to keep everything in my heart... I have no one to talk to it about... its really a big burden for me to carry....

Please... just hear me out...I hope that I was misunderstanding you... and you just didn't see me... that's why....

looking back all those years.... its really funny.... I can't believe I did all that... just for you... there was even 1 time where I stalked you... probably cause I couldn't take my eyes of you...
every time I confessed to you... I was hoping that you would have replied to me... '' actually, I love you too but I was too shy to tell you''... but instead......

I didn't know why... I did that.. maybe I was immature at that time.. and I probably still am...
let's just hope... when I wake up tomorrow, I found out that i really misunderstood you... hahaha....

What I would do for a girl I love....

I would remember her likes, dislikes... so they only face their likes every time of the day
I would literally fly to the moon to bring her back a piece of the moon if she asks for it...
I would be there for her whether she's sad or happy...
I would be there for her when she needs someone to talk to...
I would do anything for her... that is in my power to.....

I wrote this post at night when I had to do my newsletter... so many edits because of the Interact teacher... she's an english teacher.. so she wants my newsletter to have perfect english and no immorality.... sheesh...

Another day... another post....

S.M.K. Sultan Abdul Samad interact club I.U. day this Saturday... anyone reading this please come....

Time: 10am
Date: 4th April 2009
Venue: Dewan Bakti, S.M.K. Sultan Abdul Samad
Theme: Childhood, the age of innocence

and i will also be selling my newsletter =)... it should be at the counter... hope you will help me and buy it.. its only Rm 2.50... Thank you...

About my thoughts earlier that day.....

.... Even though all I have done is to impress you..... no doubt it will help me in the future...

All this while... I have been thinking about this the wrong way... you have been my motivation whenever i almost gave up... and everything that i gained is actually beneficial to me.... so I should thank you...
Lastly, i discovered my favorite group through yours...

In many ways i didn't know... you have helped me... you have made my will stronger.... I became healthier...I became fitter.....I became smarter.....I became taller....I learned violin....I became a better pianist...

the guy you use to know is about to disappear... I will now lead my life happily and try in the future not to spend so much time thinking about a girl.... the part of my mind which longed for you will now be erased.... or I will at least try to block it so it does not affect my life in the future and my interaction with you.... I will no longer get nervous when I talk to you... I will not longer hesitate to tell you anything.... I will not think about you every day, every afternoon and every night before i go to sleep.... I will not use my thought of impressing you be my motivation... Therefore .... this will be the last post where I am thinking of you as I write it...... so long and good bye....

your use-to-be admirer.....

Everything i do is for you....

Why did i join this school and stayed for 4 years when i could have gone to other schools?

Why do i want to grow taller?

Why do i want to be fitter?

Why do i want to learn violin?

Why do i want to be more handsome?

Why do i want to be a professional pianist?

Why do i want to be in the school team?

Its is all so you could notice me... its all because of what you said... its all because of what school you went to.... but after all this time... i realize that i have just been wasting my time... and thinking one sided... i thought you would have notice all this things that i have been doing...

But just a while ago..... i finally notice... i thought you were around just because i was around... but i was wrong... its because you were around that's why I was around.... and the fact that you were around was.....

the truth is... it was because of my friend..... and it was my best friend....

all this was just too good to be true... all the while...

moral of the story is... if you truly love someone... let them go if they don't love you..... don't go through the agony of wanting them to love you back... i can tell you it will be unbearable... you won't do anything right.... you can't sleep at night just thinking of her...... you won't have any appetite to eat... you would not be able to enjoy your life....




so.. after a really really long time... I think I have finally understand and truly be able to let you go.....

My feelings are abit confuse at the moment...

what should i do?... i need someone experienced to help me... my feelings tak tentu hala now..

what are crushes? puppy love??? it goes a way after a while... right?...

i don't really know... somebody tell me...

i longed for some1 to love... yet many says that single life is the best... =S...but the fact is that our hormones are raging at this age.. so that's mainly what we think about... ( we as in teenagers)

i think i need counseling..... =/... (this is making me feel emotional... but i don't think i should be... because this is a very small problem, why should i make myself feel miserable.. right? but i can't help it...)

The biggest problem is.. i don't know how love works... how do couples exist?? do they love each other at the same time when they 1st meet ?? i guess love doesn't need to have a reason....

i'll probably find out all this when i grow older...

Slam dunk...

in the next few years.. i ll grow taller... and ill slamdunk..... here's what i would look like if i did a slam dunk.... just to give u an imagination =)


hehehehe... play too much basketball so dark di =)....

whining about a week of boredom...wth...

one week of my life is going to fly away without me doing anything... its so boring ler...

i guess i'll just have to go on watching korean dramas and movies... and listening to emo songs >.<

sad... hope can go out this wedesday with khairul, karlil, sean, joshua,and maybe zafri after handball practice....

now i m typing crap online... sheessh....